I'm going through a weird phase or maybe depression. I almost made myself bleed alot while I took a mechanical pencil and began to scrape my skin with it! I still have the mark! It looks like I'm cutting myself and I might do it! I can't get a grip on things..... My mom is dying. I think she is so...... I can't do alot of things... I have migrains everyday! I can't... I think I'm gonna take a few days or maybe weeks from DA. So, I don't want to hear anyone say 'DON'T LEAVE' or 'IF YOU LEAVE I'LL HATE YOU'. I just don't freakin care! I'm sick and tired! I'm about to the point where I want to get a gun and shoot my head off or posion myself. So.... this will be maybe the last time I will ever be on here. I'll either be dead or gone off to lalaland to rebirth myself. Also... that means no more POKEMON POKEDEX DRAWINGS EVER.. or untill I get myself up to beat. NO STORYS. Also... I wonder... what would happen if I never existed? I mean like if I died before birth and on one of my birthdays... Whats it like to die? What happens afterwards? Is it just white and you'll have wings/halo or horns/batwings? Everything is becoming weird and strangge. My vison is blurring and I don't feel like living. My mom is really dying. I know she is. I can feel her dying. I SENSE IT! So, pleae GOD don't take her away. If you do and decide it is her time. Make it less painful. I don't want to see her suffer. Thats a cruel way to die. Nothing should ever die like that. Nothing! My dad is scaring me. I think he will kill my mom or hurt her. ABUSIVELY. I feel bad about writing about my life to make all of you seem to cheer me up. I just want to ****ing die right now. Slit my throat or stab my beating heart. Where's Naruto's heart warming laugh? Where's Sora's/Roxas's heart warming smile that always cheers anyone up? Nows the time I wish they were real. Sometimes I wish I was born in an anime world like NARUTO, POKEMON, DIGIMON, DRAGON DRIVE, HAMTARO, SHUGO CHARA, MAMOTTE LOLLIPOP, KITCHEN PRINCESS, and many others. I'll be on to sometimes rp and talk but no more. So.... I shall leave here. I'll be on and off for some pleasure reading then. So.. tot siens,zdravo,farvel,さようなら,안녕,附属的.